..續本文上一頁 in or out, but still alive. Don”t be scared! Don”t run away thinking you”ve stopped breathing! This is already a peaceful state. You don”t have to do anything, just sit in it. Sometimes, it”s like you”re not even breathing, but you are. Many things like this can happen, but it”s okay. Just be aware of it all, without being fooled by any of it.
Just keep doing it and often! Right after you eat, hang up your robe and just start walking: "BUD-DHO, BUD-DHO..." Keep at it till your path becomes a knee-deep trench, just keep walking. When tired, go and sit. Do a lot! Do it so that you know, so that you have it, so that it”s born, so that you understand what it”s all about. Not just walking a bit: chung, chok, chung, chok...thinking of this and that, then up to lie down in your hut, soon snoring away! You”ll never see anything that way. If you”re lazy, when will it ever be finished
If you”re tired or lazy, how far will you get
Just get it together, work through and get beyond your laziness. Not saying: "Peaceful, peaceful, peaceful," then sit and aren”t peaceful right away, then quit because it isn”t there.
It”s easy to say, but hard to do. Huh! Like saying: "Oh, it”s not hard to plant rice, to plant and eat rice is better than this." But go out and do it and you don”t know the oxen from the buffalo from the plow! Actually, doing it is a lot different from talking about it. That”s how it is, you know.
All of you, wanting to find peacefulness -- it”s there! But you still don”t know anything yet. Whoever you ask, you won”t know. Just get to know your own breath going in and out, "BUD-DHO, BUD-DHO..." That”s enough. Just do that. You don”t have to think of much. At this time, know this, learn this for now. "I do it and I don”t see anything." Doesn”t matter, just do it. Whatever comes up, okay, just do it like this, so you”ll know what it”s about. Do it and see! If you just sit like this and know what”s happening it”s really all okay. When your mind becomes peaceful, it knows. You can sit all night till dawn and you won”t feel you”re even sitting, you enjoy it. You can”t explain it, it”s like enjoyment.
When it gets like this, you might want to give "profound" sermons, but beware of getting "verbal diarrhea," expounding the Dhamma constantly, driving folks nutty with your non-stop teaching. Like old Novice Sang. One night just at dusk, walking meditation time, I heard someone in the bamboo grove nearby carrying on: "Yo, yo, yo, yo..." I sat and listened, thinking, "Who”s teaching who over there
Who”s carrying on
" He didn”t stop, just kept babbling on. So I took my flashlight and walked over to see. Sure enough, it was Novice Sang sitting under his bamboo clump, lantern lit, cross-legged, bellowing at full blast, expounding the Dhamma to the night! "Sang, have you flipped your lid
" "Oh, I just can”t hold it in!" he said. "When sitting, I gotta teach; when walking, I gotta teach...don”t know where it”ll end!" A real nut! Oh well, that”s how it is, it can happen, you know.
But keep at it. Don”t just follow your moods. When lazy, keep at it! When energetic, keep at it! Do the sitting and walking and even when lying down, watch your breath. Before sleeping, teach your mind: "I won”t indulge in the pleasure of sleep." When you awaken, continue meditating. And when eating, we remind ourselves: "I won”t eat this food with greed, but only as medicine to sustain my life for this day and night, in order to have strength enough to carry on meditating." Before sleeping we teach ourselves; before eating we teach ourselves like that continually. If standing, be aware; if sitting, be aware; if lying down, be aware. Everything, do it that way! When you lie down, lie on your right side, focusing on your breath, "BUD-DHO, BUD-DHO..." until you fall …
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